Friday, April 30, 2010

Dear God I love this photo, it sends shivers down my spine! I just loovee it!

I don't know whats wrong with me at the moment, after a few songs by Nirvana I just can't stop thinking about them I am inlove with Kurt he is so beautiful and I just love the way he expresses himself through his music!!

best quotes ever:
Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.
-Kurt Cobain
I'm so happy because today I found my friends - they're in my head.
-Kurt Cobain
A friend is nothing but a known enemy.
-Kurt Cobain
Rather be dead than cool.
-Kurt Cobain
I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.
-Kurt Cobain

♥kurt cobain

To Boddah:

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community had proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things.

For example, when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begin, it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun.

Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do, God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.

On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.

I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much, I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.

Peace, love, empathy,

Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

I love you, I love you!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Thursday, April 22, 2010

YAY! I passed with a 94% :)

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Oh no!!

I am so scared!!!!!!!!

Monday, April 19, 2010

Learning to drive.

I have always wanted to do something creative like this.

And this.

I love Harry Potter.

My Friend has a t-shirt like this.

On Thursday 22nd of April I will be taking my Learners Driving test. I have never been so nervous for something in my life. Wish me luck, I'll need it.


My favorite colors are; imaginary
I have 3 friends.
I like to listen to old stories.
My Last name sounds like a Pasta Sauce.
I Love Spongebob.
I Get bad headaches.
I love Photography, even though I'm not that flash at it.
I was the naughtiest kid in year 6, 7, 8 and 9.
My birthday is Feburary 9th.
Harry Potter is my life.

I’m sick.
I’m tired.
I’m sore.
I’m bored.
I hate my school.
I hate homework.
I’m hungry.
I might get a tattoo.
I wish my mum would approve of a tattoo.

Good sense of humor.
Having the ability to make me laugh or smile anytime.
Great taste in music.
Having good hair.
Caring, all over good personality.

Brush my teeth.
Go on computer.
Get in pajamas.
Check my phone.

I think that we could be best friends.
I hate you so friken much.
I want to have sex with you.
I miss you.

Listening to music.
Regreting running.

Being Tickled.

Travel around the world.
Delete my Facebook

I love you.

Oh Monday.

Oh Monday.

I have a weird obsession for nerdy boys.

In my opinion this looks like my friend. In everyone elses, it dosen't.

I want these tattoo's the one on her chest and hand.

Ahh. So beautiful

Sunday, April 18, 2010


"You see that pack of Virginia killing sticks on the end of the piano?"


"All you need to know about life is retained in those four walls. You will notice that one of your personalities is seduced by the illusions of grandeur - the gold packet of king size with a regal insignia, an attractive implication towards grandeur and wealth, the subtle suggestion that cigarettes are indeed your royal and loyal friends, and that, Pete, is a lie. Your other personality is trying to draw your attention to the flip side of the discussion, written in boring bold black and white, it's a statement that these neat little soldiers of death and in fact trying to kill you and that, Pete, is the truth. Oh, beauty is a beguiling call to death and I'm addicted to the sweet pitch of its siren. That, that starts sweet ends bitter, and that which starts bitter ends sweet.
That is why you and i love the drugs and that is also why I cannot give that painting back. now please, pass me a light."

"Oh you are something special, Mr johnny quid."

Thursday, April 15, 2010


Yes, I am a very bad procrastinator so instead of doing my homework I'm look up hilarious clips on Youtube.

Here is my top 5: (not in any particular order)

1. Is 'Irving the Socially Awkward Bee' I almost wet my self watching this. My friend Emily Collin showed me this at school and I almost died of laughter!
2. Is 'Family Guy - Girl With A Bad Laugh' This is just flippin' awesome!
"Shut up mate"
"Ya mum"
4. Is 'when wogs get stuck in a lift' When one of the wogs "cant breathe" haha!
5. Is 'Dance Fail' Possibly the worlds biggest dance fuck up ever!

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Designer Drugs.

Today while surfing through my jam packed Facebook news feed I come across one of my friends has become a fan of ‘Designer Drugs’ me being the curious type thought this was a kind of drug you could get but I was sadly mistaken when I came across these 2 men I thought this was very odd as a drug so I looked further into it and realised it was actually a band of 2 men Michael Vincent Patrick and Theodore Paul Nelson. At first I thought this band was an alternative ‘indie’ sort of band until I did my usually Youtube stalk and figured that this 2 were actually DJ’s, this was pretty cool seeing as they had some really good music its nothing to techno and nothing to gay just in the middle it’ a mix of Club/Rock/Electro/House. I would recommend giving them a look on Youtube highly recommend the songs ‘Zombies,' 'Drop Down’ and 'Blow Up'

Monday, April 12, 2010


I have never really owned one of those fancy cameras but realised how much I enjoy photos and things that capture a moment.

I do seem to have 2 very well working cameras that i love to take around with me just for the novelty of having a working film camera.

I have always wanted to be a Photographer almost as much as a makeup artist so the first 'photo shoot' ever was with my good-looking friend Brigette. I dressed her up and did her makeup and made her do all these crazy poses... at this point in my life I didn’t really own a real camera so all my photos were taken on an iphone with the lighting from a torch. Some turned out pretty cool.

This is Atlanta and Elycia. say hi.
These are my 2 favorite photos only becacause I like these 2 people...

When I was a little bit older I got my first 'real' camera it belonged to my father so when I walked into the room beyond the garage I pulled out a box containing a vintage camera that had been used in the Vietnam war (according to my dad) I thought this was crazy so as soon as I got it I was taking photos of everything I thought I was pretty professional with it, so when I met up with my mates (Issy and Emma)and had another 'photo shoot' (without the makeup) which I think they quite enjoyed seeing as they love a good snap shot.

I also have so really cool friends who take amazing photos... I’ll include a couple. The following photos were taken by Eddie Goldsmith/Junior, fuck I love these photos.

And just this year I finally bought the coolest camera ever my very own
Diana F+

But I really would like to own a professional digital camera. Would be nice :)

Things I Like, Dislike and nothing in between

I like a lot really, but what I dislike is... Alarm clocks. Like I said before I like a lot of things really, like drinking from the carton, and I like the smell of burnt toast. I dislike raw meat as much as I dislike eating it. I very much enjoy Christmas sweaters, but i don’t actually like wearing them. There’s a 2.7 genetic difference between gorillas and humans; they kill each other over land, status, and women ... I don't like that. I like the way a new pack of cigarettes smells like raisins, but I hate actual raisins. I like writing my name in the snow, it lets people I’ve been there, I like that. But I dislike when people write 'I was here' on public property. It’s too permanent. I don’t like funerals, I don’t know anybody who does, they are depressing and I feel obligated to cry. And death however I like to think all life’s answers revealed. I like the looks of my scars, they tell stories. But I don’t like where they are on my body y. I wonder what else I will regret in 10 years. I don’t remember much of my childhood, I don’t like that. But I did like blowing milk bubbles, and colouring outside of the lines in colouring books. I remember stealing classmate’s things, I like that. Mean. I know, but children can be cruel. I like the word 'limbo' so many connotations. First is the unbaptised but innocent or righteous souls, as those of infants or virtuous individuals who lived before the coming of Christ. Second is a fun dancing game when you are on holiday when you’re drunk and the third is an intermediate place or state. I like saying movie lines to myself in the mirror when nobody is watching, and movies were main characters...Die in car crashes. I hate feet and crocs. I hate when people clearly see you and they still don’t hold the door open for you and I hate ripping off bandaids. I like the idea of a box of love notes but I don’t actually like reading them nostalgia is over-rated. I think I especially don’t like is how my voice sounds on film/tape. I do like watching weird movies. I like reading books and watching Harry Potter. I don’t like when I quote movie lines and people don’t understand it. The last thing I like is when in old movie theatres when the film is done the curtains close when it’s all over.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Harry James Potter.

Here I will include some of the most voluptuous, risqué, titillating photos of the cast of Harry Potter.

Harry Potter books in my opinion are the most prodigious book ever to hit the shelves.
Ever since my beautiful friend Ali Dvorscek's birthday on March the 3rd I have indeed become quite infatuated with the idea of Harry potter. The books and movies have almost become an unbreakable habit in my day to day life. Each book/movie has their goods and there bad (mostly goods,) reading these books has really put a spin into the way I think and do things, such as; when doors are locked instead of using a key I just wave my hand a say Alohomora, most of the time this does not work unless I quickly follow with opening the door with my keys. Or when I am in a dark room I raise my hand and say Lumos slide my hands upon the walls looking for the switch. Doing all this stuff really makes life a lot more magical!
Seeing as I only have a few friends who actually enjoy Harry Potter whenever I meet someone who has a heart for ‘The Chosen One’ I seem to get all excited and start a long conversation on how much I love it and how every chapter has a surprise.
I truly could go on about Mr Harry James Potter for hours and hours but no doubt that would be boring and nobody really likes blogs if they are boring... not really counting on anybody to read this, but there is always the off chance that some over obsessed teenager will find this and send it to all their friends...

Peace love and all that shit